Monday, February 23, 2009

Grandma Benny


That is what I called my Grandma when I was little. I remember asking Mom if we could go down to Grandma Benny's? Grandma and I had alot of fun together....camping on Cranberry, our trips to Williamsburg, VA to see Tim, hanging out together, taking her to the dr, fixing her hair, celebrating many of her birthdays, etc. Now after 96 1/2 years my Grandma Benny doesn't remember me......dementia has set in and she comes and goes, not sure what she talking about and the signs of old age. We had seen this over the past few years, but I always thought Grandma would outlive us all, she was to stubborn to do other wise. Now, her mind is gone...her body is the same, her face, her eyes, her hands, but when she talks, it's not Grandma. I called her the other night and she talked and I thought good she remembers me, then she asked...."who is this?" I cried, because at that point I knew I had lost my Grandma Benny. I had planned to take my Mom and SPencer to Florida for spring break, but now, I am led to the mountains of WV for a visit with my Grandma...she may not remember me, depending on the day. My heart breaks for my Mom, it is so hard to see her Mom, the one that she has had for 75 years, say horrible things to you, things that hurt you, have no recall of things and search for things that are long gone. It is hard to see someone you love act differently, I can't even begin to imagine. So in ending this post is a tribute to my Grandma Benny, remembering all the good times shared and a tribute to my Mom for being a strong lady! I love you both with all my heart!

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