"He's the child............."

WOW, just finished at lunch reading Roadmap to Holland. What a great way she has shared so many of the same feelings I had. This read was great therapy for me at a time when I needed some therapy! I remember that day when the genetic counselor confirmed that Spencer has Down Syndrome. I couldn't hardly breathe, it hurt so bad. Mostly it hurt because I was afraid he was going to die, just like Madelyn. Now 7 years and some odd months later, can't remember it. Not that I want that feeling back, but what it actually felt like. That hurt, not knowing, not understanding and not knowing what I was suppose to do! Now, what to do just happens. Just be Mommie and everything else will fall into place. I remember his teacher at the Meyer Center, Ms. "Didi" told me "don't worry, you do the Mommie things and let us teachers do the rest." She was such a great teacher for Spencer and me.

Today when I finished the book, the last 2 sentences said it all "He's the child I wanted, that I did not know I wanted. He is my son."